Somedays I feel like I failed as an older sister(Alternate- I failed as an older sister, Alternate-How I failed you as an older sister)
There was this one time in my teens where I resented the fact I had to spend more time watching my younger siblings, that I couldn’t go out for track, and my time with my boyfriend was very limited.
I decided to let you guys move away, and decided to make decisions for myself. I made that choice.
Because I know how easily you are broken, yet I crack you at your edges, and pull apart your walls even though you smile when we ride around in my truck. Even though I know you look up to me and wish you could be me.
I use to hurt inside thinking our older sister was better than me, and never appreciated myself for me, until my late teens. And I should have told you that you are wonderful and made you realize you are great as you are. Don’t waste the time comparing yourself to me, we are inherently different, it’s beautiful.
14 hours separates us, and I need to scream at you two, you are the best younger siblings a sister could ask for.
I’m sorry I’m not closer to watch you guys grow.
You said you smoked pot, and I should have told you I did to. It’s okay to experiment with things in life.
Because I preach for freedom of body and mind, and I try to praise teenage girls for their passion, but I cut you down.
I’m sorry I failed you as an older sister. I’ll be at your graduation cheering you onward, and forward in life.